'tired' is brandished on my forehead.
-.-
Monday, March 21, 2005
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
in Christ alone
went back to geylang efc yesterday for serice. was really ministered by this song.. i thought it put the whole of last week into perspective, for me at least.
`In Christ Alone
`In Christ Alone
In Christ alone my hope is found
He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All
Here in the love of Christ I stand
In Christ alone, who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones He came to save
'Till on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live
There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave He rose again
And as He stands in victory
Sin's curse has lost it's grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Brought with the precious blood of Christ
No guilt in life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life's first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
'Till He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
passed
life has never seemed so short until today.
it brings home the point that life here on earth is so short. be it 20 years or 50, even 100.. when compared to ETERNITY in heaven with God. what should we be doing with our life then?
it brings home the point that life here on earth is so short. be it 20 years or 50, even 100.. when compared to ETERNITY in heaven with God. what should we be doing with our life then?
Monday, February 28, 2005
got peace?
got peace?
ade ` the garden city is browning into a hay city` says:
peace. it's so impt
Jingwen says:
it is.
Jingwen says:
when you do something wrong,
Jingwen says:
no peace
Jingwen says:
when you don't know what to do
Jingwen says:
no peace
Jingwen says:
when you feel guilty
Jingwen says:
no peace
Jingwen says:
when you are angry
Jingwen says:
no peace
Jingwen says:
when you are sad
Jingwen says:
no peace
Jingwen says:
when you are anxious,
Jingwen says:
no peace
i've realised that u won't have peace unless you do God's will. if you go against Him or be disobedient, you'l feel very frustrated.
a good eg would be this whole issue of my changing church/ministry. i didn't want to leave cos i knew i would miss the youths, some who are more like friends than little mentees(: i knew that i'l miss my friends.. cos, God really answered my prayer when i asked for Christian friends in church who would help me in my walk with God.. heh. He didn't just give me one, He gave me so many more!!(there're like 8or 9 others around my age) i knew that i will miss being comfortable in a church and knowing everyone, and just being myself..
but, when i finally let go, and told God that if it was His will for me to move to the new church, He must give me peace with the decision and help me look foward to going.
so, i'm really thankful now, cos i have the peace about this whole issue. i would definitely miss you all, but, please pray for me that i will have peace when i am at woodlands efc, ok?
Sunday, February 20, 2005
Saturday, February 19, 2005
hot weather
the heat is simply unbearable. didn't go for ywav today cos i'm really down with the cold. and the muscles were/are aching. and i feared that they would melt like jelly that comes into direct contact with the scorching sun. ok. fine. i exaggerate. the unfunny thing is that although i have the cold, i don't feel cold. -.-
hot weather makes me write stupid and irritated things.. -.-
let's write about something more pleasant. like V-Day:)
v-day this year was one of the most happening v-days.. heh. why? let me tell u, cos, i saw david yeo in the arts canteen!! ^ ^ he is STILL TALL & CUTE. the downside? i saw him with the same girl he was with the other time i spotted him at ps, which means, she's probably he's girlfriend and there goes one very eligible guy who's taken.
(i think some eyes are rolling now)
so, anyway, the next day, i had esc (English Speaking Corner) with the prcs.. i realise that these chinese scholars really know what they want in life. esp with the recent debate in the news about the competition singaporeans face with 30,000 chinese students in singapore, from primary school to varsity. i couldn't help but feel for them, the prcs, that is. i do get the whole notion of how infuriating it is to compete with these foreign students. in scgs, there were these few vietnamese scholars who swept almost all the bookprizes, from physics to literature. and then, last sem, i saw how the chinese really could jack up the bell curve of grades for my french class.. they were really smart/hardworking.
now now, before anyone starts misquoting me that i am anti-foreign talent, let me clarify.
to be in direct contact with 14 china scholars now, i've a better picture and understanding. these 14 prcs, 8 are your average "joe"s and 6 average "jane"s, came to singapore with barely passable english. trust me, i had to speak my really broken chinese to communicate with them. now, it's been almost 2 months since they've gone through intensive english classes at nus. and i now understand why china chinese do so well in school.
their english is still not on par with mine, but, they are really humble. they are willing to let me correct their english for them. teachability. because their english is not good, they make up for it by mugging hard. that's why they do so well in school. to make up for their not-as-good english. another reason why they study so hard is also to make it big. sucess is really important to them. they don't take it for granted. well, that's my theory.
one major thing i've realised is that chinese like any other people need God. back to what i said in the beginning, that these chinese really know what they want in life.
or, do they?
i just hope that they will grow to realise even if they attain love, career, family. they will never be satsified unless they know God. Matthew 16:26 says:
"What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul? Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul?"
this is the theme verse for Falling.Spinning, a vcf musical that's coming up in the Easter week. for more info, go to Falling.Spinning
anyway, just to go back to v-day. my prcs asked me what i did for v-day at the end of the esc session. they had such mischievous grins on their faces and their eyes held that expectant look. when i told them that my v-day was boring, spent with vcf@swordfighters, their attention strayed and they started to pack up and not listen to what i was saying.. grrh. what was that supposed to mean?? that if i didnt have a date with a hot guy or ANY guy for that matter, it wasn't worth listening to me?!
oh well. c'est la vie.
je n'ai pas de ami. -.-
(french for " i do not have any boyfriends.)Lol. damn. my french is good.
hot weather makes me write stupid and irritated things.. -.-
let's write about something more pleasant. like V-Day:)
v-day this year was one of the most happening v-days.. heh. why? let me tell u, cos, i saw david yeo in the arts canteen!! ^ ^ he is STILL TALL & CUTE. the downside? i saw him with the same girl he was with the other time i spotted him at ps, which means, she's probably he's girlfriend and there goes one very eligible guy who's taken.
(i think some eyes are rolling now)
so, anyway, the next day, i had esc (English Speaking Corner) with the prcs.. i realise that these chinese scholars really know what they want in life. esp with the recent debate in the news about the competition singaporeans face with 30,000 chinese students in singapore, from primary school to varsity. i couldn't help but feel for them, the prcs, that is. i do get the whole notion of how infuriating it is to compete with these foreign students. in scgs, there were these few vietnamese scholars who swept almost all the bookprizes, from physics to literature. and then, last sem, i saw how the chinese really could jack up the bell curve of grades for my french class.. they were really smart/hardworking.
now now, before anyone starts misquoting me that i am anti-foreign talent, let me clarify.
to be in direct contact with 14 china scholars now, i've a better picture and understanding. these 14 prcs, 8 are your average "joe"s and 6 average "jane"s, came to singapore with barely passable english. trust me, i had to speak my really broken chinese to communicate with them. now, it's been almost 2 months since they've gone through intensive english classes at nus. and i now understand why china chinese do so well in school.
their english is still not on par with mine, but, they are really humble. they are willing to let me correct their english for them. teachability. because their english is not good, they make up for it by mugging hard. that's why they do so well in school. to make up for their not-as-good english. another reason why they study so hard is also to make it big. sucess is really important to them. they don't take it for granted. well, that's my theory.
one major thing i've realised is that chinese like any other people need God. back to what i said in the beginning, that these chinese really know what they want in life.
or, do they?
i just hope that they will grow to realise even if they attain love, career, family. they will never be satsified unless they know God. Matthew 16:26 says:
"What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul? Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul?"
this is the theme verse for Falling.Spinning, a vcf musical that's coming up in the Easter week. for more info, go to Falling.Spinning
anyway, just to go back to v-day. my prcs asked me what i did for v-day at the end of the esc session. they had such mischievous grins on their faces and their eyes held that expectant look. when i told them that my v-day was boring, spent with vcf@swordfighters, their attention strayed and they started to pack up and not listen to what i was saying.. grrh. what was that supposed to mean?? that if i didnt have a date with a hot guy or ANY guy for that matter, it wasn't worth listening to me?!
oh well. c'est la vie.
je n'ai pas de ami. -.-
(french for " i do not have any boyfriends.)Lol. damn. my french is good.
Thursday, February 17, 2005
gettin sick
i'm in school now.. this is like the first time in ages since i've blogged in school.. which means that i've been very productive(i hope) n not wasting time online..(i.e. hibernating in the lib)
mid term break is next week. a measely four pathetic days. and adeline thinks she is falling sick. she went to bed last night very tired and with a horrible sore throat :( plus the nose has decided to be block..i can just taste the phelgm. i think i've run into the problem of too many activities, too much homework, too many people and not enough time for rest.. trust me, 5 and a half hours of sleep a day is simply not enough.
BUT, i'm not looking foward to next week.. too many assignments, too many readings to catch up on(but compare to last term, slightly better), too many people to catch up with, too many things to do, too many activities again.. and just 4 days. ugh.
and, above all, not enough time spent with God. by the time i come home eveyrday, i'm so tired, i just zone out infront of the tv. i'm just short of falling into bed without bathing. plus, may i add, the weather is so so hot the past 2 months, that i think i get a taste of what hell is. i simply cannot take heat. i need the cold. ugh.
so much for complaints. i'm coming down with the cold, so pardon me.
mid term break is next week. a measely four pathetic days. and adeline thinks she is falling sick. she went to bed last night very tired and with a horrible sore throat :( plus the nose has decided to be block..i can just taste the phelgm. i think i've run into the problem of too many activities, too much homework, too many people and not enough time for rest.. trust me, 5 and a half hours of sleep a day is simply not enough.
BUT, i'm not looking foward to next week.. too many assignments, too many readings to catch up on(but compare to last term, slightly better), too many people to catch up with, too many things to do, too many activities again.. and just 4 days. ugh.
and, above all, not enough time spent with God. by the time i come home eveyrday, i'm so tired, i just zone out infront of the tv. i'm just short of falling into bed without bathing. plus, may i add, the weather is so so hot the past 2 months, that i think i get a taste of what hell is. i simply cannot take heat. i need the cold. ugh.
so much for complaints. i'm coming down with the cold, so pardon me.
Thursday, February 10, 2005
Saturday, February 05, 2005
Your grace is sufficient for me
Your strength is made perfect when I am weak
All that I cling to, I lay at Your feet
Your grace is sufficient for me
Is it not tough to let go of things in life??
i do. it's never easy..but, i thank God..i'm actually excited about moving on. just now when i asked my dad if he thinks i could come back for e-training.. he gave the expected answer: no.
but, what was surprising was that i actually agreed with him. and i could actually 'feel' that i had to move on. oh well. an answered prayer.
sometimes i wonder if i get things easy from God. why is it that my prayers get answered??(ok, fine.. maybe not all) i was talking to this guy in school this week. he used to go to church. and, two of his close family members passed away last year. he just couldn't comprehend how God could remain silent in such a time as that. eventually, he gave up on God. for His silence.
i really wanted to share the gospel with my friend at that time..but, i had this strong urge that it was not the right time. and i've been thinkin recently.. why was God silent?i don't even know what my friend went through. what i fear most is that how am i to tell him that God loves him so much, yet He let his family members die without knowin Christ. i just do not know.
and now, i am getting a little worried.. wat if God decideds to leave me in silence for a while?? to let me know how it feels??? can i handle it? can i come out of it stronger. can it not happen this half of this year?? can i come out of it with greater trust in God?
as i ramble, i realise a few things...
1. it's ok if i can't comprehend what my friend has gone through. i can never taste any struggles that any friend undergoes. i can't . God can.
That is why we have a great High Priest who has gone to heaven, Jesus the Son of God. Let us cling to him and never stop trusting him. This High Priest of ours understands our weaknesses, for he faced all of the same temptations we do, yet he did not sin.So let us come boldly to the throne of our gracious God. There we will receive his mercy, and we will find grace to help us when we need it.
Hebrews4:14-16
2. i need a firm foundation in Christ. one so strong, that no matter what happens, i will not crumble. it's ok to waver a little..but, ultimately, always remember that if life is unbearable when God is silent, how much more so, if i take God out of my life completely.
Lord i give You my heart, i give You my soul, i live for You alone
every breath that i take, every moment i'm awake
LORD, have your way in me.
that's my prayer.. that God will have His way in me. do pray for my friend. and for me if i ever get the chance to talk to him again(:
Your strength is made perfect when I am weak
All that I cling to, I lay at Your feet
Your grace is sufficient for me
Is it not tough to let go of things in life??
i do. it's never easy..but, i thank God..i'm actually excited about moving on. just now when i asked my dad if he thinks i could come back for e-training.. he gave the expected answer: no.
but, what was surprising was that i actually agreed with him. and i could actually 'feel' that i had to move on. oh well. an answered prayer.
sometimes i wonder if i get things easy from God. why is it that my prayers get answered??(ok, fine.. maybe not all) i was talking to this guy in school this week. he used to go to church. and, two of his close family members passed away last year. he just couldn't comprehend how God could remain silent in such a time as that. eventually, he gave up on God. for His silence.
i really wanted to share the gospel with my friend at that time..but, i had this strong urge that it was not the right time. and i've been thinkin recently.. why was God silent?i don't even know what my friend went through. what i fear most is that how am i to tell him that God loves him so much, yet He let his family members die without knowin Christ. i just do not know.
and now, i am getting a little worried.. wat if God decideds to leave me in silence for a while?? to let me know how it feels??? can i handle it? can i come out of it stronger. can it not happen this half of this year?? can i come out of it with greater trust in God?
as i ramble, i realise a few things...
1. it's ok if i can't comprehend what my friend has gone through. i can never taste any struggles that any friend undergoes. i can't . God can.
That is why we have a great High Priest who has gone to heaven, Jesus the Son of God. Let us cling to him and never stop trusting him. This High Priest of ours understands our weaknesses, for he faced all of the same temptations we do, yet he did not sin.So let us come boldly to the throne of our gracious God. There we will receive his mercy, and we will find grace to help us when we need it.
Hebrews4:14-16
2. i need a firm foundation in Christ. one so strong, that no matter what happens, i will not crumble. it's ok to waver a little..but, ultimately, always remember that if life is unbearable when God is silent, how much more so, if i take God out of my life completely.
Lord i give You my heart, i give You my soul, i live for You alone
every breath that i take, every moment i'm awake
LORD, have your way in me.
that's my prayer.. that God will have His way in me. do pray for my friend. and for me if i ever get the chance to talk to him again(:
Monday, January 31, 2005
le temps
i've been feeling happy recently.. joyful, if u think that's a better word cos' "happy" is just a state of mind. but, "joyful" is a state of being.. Lol.. i should go lecture philo ^ ^
don't even know why i'm feelin so good. it's good to feel good. i hope i stay up here for a while. it sux to feel bad. besides, it's been a long long time since i last felt so good.. life seems almost perfect.. which is dangerous cos' it may take God out of the picture.. must work extra hard to not neglect Him when life is smooth.
yeah. u know, i really feel good..
anyway, just a funny thought, i can't help but feel as if the need to find a bf is right in my face. nono.. is "need" the right word?? maybe "want" would be better. want to find a bf. it's tough u know, when most of your friends around you are either officially attached or half attached, havin an exclusive relationship with some guy. maybe it's bcos i've been 20 for half a month, and the biological clock is goin 'tick-tock tick-tock'. my mom says it's the AGE to start dating.. argh. it's not the pressure.. it's just in-your-face. and i find it very irritating..make that extremely irritating. everytime i meet up with my sec & jc friends.. the MAJOR topic is always about guys, bf. whenever i meet up with long-time-no-see friends, i must say i'm a bore.. cos' i have no 'interesting' tales to tell about any encounter with any guys.. (unless u count that super cute&blur psych guy i met last fri.. haha.. he's really REALLY cute ^ ^ he makes me actually consider taking psych as my major..tempting.. but, nah) it doesn't help that my mother, when talking to her friends, KEEPS mentioning her intention to kick my out of the house in 3 years time cos' i'l be "married by then". right. *fumes* obviously she is joking.. like she jokes even with the fishmonger about marrying me off to the richest guy in the market. "market", as in the palce where you go buy food.. not the general term "market". i seriously fear when the parents talk to other parents with guys of marriageable age and JOKE about MY marriage?! it is seriously scary..*freaks*
ugh. anyway, just an afterthought. i've been worried about what i'm goin to major in nus.. and i've finally decided to major in European studies, with a minor in English studies. this combination actually allows me to read History, Lit & English..my 3 loves(: i'm actually excited just thinking about it.. don't u think it's cool to say that you major in European studies?? it's just so avant garde.
anyway, better go study for tmr's french test. Bonsoir ^ ^
don't even know why i'm feelin so good. it's good to feel good. i hope i stay up here for a while. it sux to feel bad. besides, it's been a long long time since i last felt so good.. life seems almost perfect.. which is dangerous cos' it may take God out of the picture.. must work extra hard to not neglect Him when life is smooth.
yeah. u know, i really feel good..
anyway, just a funny thought, i can't help but feel as if the need to find a bf is right in my face. nono.. is "need" the right word?? maybe "want" would be better. want to find a bf. it's tough u know, when most of your friends around you are either officially attached or half attached, havin an exclusive relationship with some guy. maybe it's bcos i've been 20 for half a month, and the biological clock is goin 'tick-tock tick-tock'. my mom says it's the AGE to start dating.. argh. it's not the pressure.. it's just in-your-face. and i find it very irritating..make that extremely irritating. everytime i meet up with my sec & jc friends.. the MAJOR topic is always about guys, bf. whenever i meet up with long-time-no-see friends, i must say i'm a bore.. cos' i have no 'interesting' tales to tell about any encounter with any guys.. (unless u count that super cute&blur psych guy i met last fri.. haha.. he's really REALLY cute ^ ^ he makes me actually consider taking psych as my major..tempting.. but, nah) it doesn't help that my mother, when talking to her friends, KEEPS mentioning her intention to kick my out of the house in 3 years time cos' i'l be "married by then". right. *fumes* obviously she is joking.. like she jokes even with the fishmonger about marrying me off to the richest guy in the market. "market", as in the palce where you go buy food.. not the general term "market". i seriously fear when the parents talk to other parents with guys of marriageable age and JOKE about MY marriage?! it is seriously scary..*freaks*
ugh. anyway, just an afterthought. i've been worried about what i'm goin to major in nus.. and i've finally decided to major in European studies, with a minor in English studies. this combination actually allows me to read History, Lit & English..my 3 loves(: i'm actually excited just thinking about it.. don't u think it's cool to say that you major in European studies?? it's just so avant garde.
anyway, better go study for tmr's french test. Bonsoir ^ ^
Sunday, January 30, 2005
addicted to pineapple tarts
i'm seriously addicted to Glory pineapple tarts..they are so yummy, the pastry is not the excessive flaky kind, there's plenty of crunch from the pineapple.. ooh.. i would like to think that they are not that fattening bcos the pastry is not buttery.. haha. as if. i'm trying to kid myself.. unfortunately, abel just decided to try them and ate the remainin 3... -.- he should have eaten earlier, then i would not have devoured so many!?
anyway, fat season is coming in.. ooh cny.. don't u just love it?? pineapple tarts, bak gua, kueh bang kit, grandma's cookin, my mom's cookin.. cookies of all kind, chock full of butter.. calorie laden.. haha. n that goondu abel is readin over my shoulder now as i type and has decided to try the above mentioned..
argh.
anyway, fat season is coming in.. ooh cny.. don't u just love it?? pineapple tarts, bak gua, kueh bang kit, grandma's cookin, my mom's cookin.. cookies of all kind, chock full of butter.. calorie laden.. haha. n that goondu abel is readin over my shoulder now as i type and has decided to try the above mentioned..
argh.
Sunday, January 23, 2005
randoms
took this off from timfoo's blog.. i just thought that it was rather apt for what i've been mulling over recently:
Thankfully, it was also then that God made me realise that i was not alone! He was with me=) Was very comforted by that. And it was then that i felt realli close to God. Soon, my confidence picked up and i got to know more people there=)
What i thought was gonna be a horrible phase, turned out more than juz fine! Now as I look back, i think God is reminding me that regardless of how many people are around you, or how many people are not around you, you can still be complete in Him. He even tells you how. Thank you Jesus, Praise God!=)
something to remind myself of now, just the thing to remember in the next few months to come. it is true.. when one starts to focus on the wrong things, ie. the focus is shifted from God, life will feel unbalanced. eventhough last year nus was such an alienating world for me, i did feel really close to God. but these few days, i feel like i'm all over the place. drifting further. and i recognize that i'm clinging on to the wrong things. it's tough to not cling. it's not absolutely wrong. it's not even wrong. but it becomes wrong when the focus is no longer on God..
it's so difficult to live a life where i am complete only in God. it's so easy to forget when one is surrounded with people/friends. it's a lesson God has been trying to teach me since sec school.. it seems that every year, i've one best friend flying off to study in some country. i thought i learnt my lesson well, when liz left and i've learnt to cope.. apparently not. this time, it's my turn to uproot. i've got to live such that regardless of the people around me, i'm complete only in God. sigh. such a difficult lesson to learn. but it's a must to.
makes me think of the song: it's all about You, Jesus. And all this is for You, for Your glory and Your grace. it's not about me, as if You should do things my way. You alone are God and I surrender, to Your ways.
Thankfully, it was also then that God made me realise that i was not alone! He was with me=) Was very comforted by that. And it was then that i felt realli close to God. Soon, my confidence picked up and i got to know more people there=)
What i thought was gonna be a horrible phase, turned out more than juz fine! Now as I look back, i think God is reminding me that regardless of how many people are around you, or how many people are not around you, you can still be complete in Him. He even tells you how. Thank you Jesus, Praise God!=)
something to remind myself of now, just the thing to remember in the next few months to come. it is true.. when one starts to focus on the wrong things, ie. the focus is shifted from God, life will feel unbalanced. eventhough last year nus was such an alienating world for me, i did feel really close to God. but these few days, i feel like i'm all over the place. drifting further. and i recognize that i'm clinging on to the wrong things. it's tough to not cling. it's not absolutely wrong. it's not even wrong. but it becomes wrong when the focus is no longer on God..
it's so difficult to live a life where i am complete only in God. it's so easy to forget when one is surrounded with people/friends. it's a lesson God has been trying to teach me since sec school.. it seems that every year, i've one best friend flying off to study in some country. i thought i learnt my lesson well, when liz left and i've learnt to cope.. apparently not. this time, it's my turn to uproot. i've got to live such that regardless of the people around me, i'm complete only in God. sigh. such a difficult lesson to learn. but it's a must to.
makes me think of the song: it's all about You, Jesus. And all this is for You, for Your glory and Your grace. it's not about me, as if You should do things my way. You alone are God and I surrender, to Your ways.
Sunday, January 16, 2005
this one is just plain weird.. it seems like me.. but not really.. it's for relationships.. n i took it without ever havin a bf.. LOL ^ ^
You are a RSIT--Reserved Sentimental Intellectual Taker. This makes you a Archetypal Older Child.
You are a hard nut to crack. You have a wicked sense of humor. Despite your reserved nature, you are more comfortable (and successful) in the meeting and courting mode than you are in a long term relationship. You feel misunderstood, and usually you are.
When you're in a good mood, you're funny, fascinating and a sexy firecracker, but when you're in a bad mood you are moody, broody and impatient. In courtship mode, you don't have to let anyone see your moody side. If you had your way, even in a long term relationship you would have enough time apart to deal with your bad moods yourself; unfortunately, it rarely works that way.
You stifle *a lot* of anger and frustration -- from all areas of your life -- so when it comes out it comes out nasty. More than any other type, your conflicts tend to turn on one tiny thing -- the dishes, the laundry -- that's really a scapegoat for your larger dissatisfactions with your relationship. You're baffled that your partner just can't do the dishes -- your partner is baffled that it's such a big deal. The only way around it is to let the dishes go entirely and try to get at the real root of what's bothering you.
I'm making you sound like a bear, but the fact is that you're so warm and charming most of the time that it effectively offsets the times you're unhappy.
You will make a weirdly good parent.
don't u just like the last part?? now, that's wat i call WEIRD.
You are a RSIT--Reserved Sentimental Intellectual Taker. This makes you a Archetypal Older Child.
You are a hard nut to crack. You have a wicked sense of humor. Despite your reserved nature, you are more comfortable (and successful) in the meeting and courting mode than you are in a long term relationship. You feel misunderstood, and usually you are.
When you're in a good mood, you're funny, fascinating and a sexy firecracker, but when you're in a bad mood you are moody, broody and impatient. In courtship mode, you don't have to let anyone see your moody side. If you had your way, even in a long term relationship you would have enough time apart to deal with your bad moods yourself; unfortunately, it rarely works that way.
You stifle *a lot* of anger and frustration -- from all areas of your life -- so when it comes out it comes out nasty. More than any other type, your conflicts tend to turn on one tiny thing -- the dishes, the laundry -- that's really a scapegoat for your larger dissatisfactions with your relationship. You're baffled that your partner just can't do the dishes -- your partner is baffled that it's such a big deal. The only way around it is to let the dishes go entirely and try to get at the real root of what's bothering you.
I'm making you sound like a bear, but the fact is that you're so warm and charming most of the time that it effectively offsets the times you're unhappy.
You will make a weirdly good parent.
don't u just like the last part?? now, that's wat i call WEIRD.
now, this IS hilarious... wah lao.. they told me to g n lie more...
Your score as a human being is 80.35.
You are close to ideal. So close, and yet so far. Amusing, really, to watch someone squirm so close to the vaunted ranks of perfection and still remain so very, very ordinary. It is all one can do to keep one's ingratiating smile from polluting one's perfect face.
Actually, one recommends you take the quiz again and lie a little.
piece of crap.. don't they realise that NICE people actually exist???is that so HARD to believe??
Your score as a human being is 80.35.
You are close to ideal. So close, and yet so far. Amusing, really, to watch someone squirm so close to the vaunted ranks of perfection and still remain so very, very ordinary. It is all one can do to keep one's ingratiating smile from polluting one's perfect face.
Actually, one recommends you take the quiz again and lie a little.
piece of crap.. don't they realise that NICE people actually exist???is that so HARD to believe??
You are a SECL--Sober Emotional Constructive Leader. This makes you a Politician.
You cut deals, you change minds, you make things happen. You would prefer to be liked than respected, but generally people react to you with both. You are very sensitive to criticism, since your entire business is making people happy.
At times your commitment to the happiness of other people can cut into the happiness of you and your loved ones. This is very demanding on those close to you, who may feel neglected. Slowly, you will learn to set your own agenda--including time to yourself.
You are gregarious, friendly, charming and charismatic. You like animals, sports, and beautiful cars. You wear understated gold jewelry and have secret bad habits, like chewing your fingers and fidgeting.
You are very difficult to dislike.
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did this on my first try.. n this was wat i got.. i sounds lil like me.. when i disagreed n did more.. it started to not sound like me.. so, bottom line.. just tkae the first score.
go to: http://hokev.brinkster.net/quiz/default.asp?quiz=Better+Personality&page=1
You cut deals, you change minds, you make things happen. You would prefer to be liked than respected, but generally people react to you with both. You are very sensitive to criticism, since your entire business is making people happy.
At times your commitment to the happiness of other people can cut into the happiness of you and your loved ones. This is very demanding on those close to you, who may feel neglected. Slowly, you will learn to set your own agenda--including time to yourself.
You are gregarious, friendly, charming and charismatic. You like animals, sports, and beautiful cars. You wear understated gold jewelry and have secret bad habits, like chewing your fingers and fidgeting.
You are very difficult to dislike.
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did this on my first try.. n this was wat i got.. i sounds lil like me.. when i disagreed n did more.. it started to not sound like me.. so, bottom line.. just tkae the first score.
go to: http://hokev.brinkster.net/quiz/default.asp?quiz=Better+Personality&page=1
Friday, January 14, 2005
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
2005 resolution
I am seriously STUFFED. Went to sond's house today w liz& sarah... apparently, to celebrate my birthday. I love my friends.heh. we talked a lot about relationships(or rathertheir relationships w their bf/guy friends). Looking at them, it makes me even more certain to stay off any guy for the next one&half years.. it's so time consuming+emotionally drainin.. I can't even handle academic stuff n church n friends n family well enough. Oh well.. so much for wanting to get married by 25 and then have kids before 30.. haha. It's hilarious, I know. I seriously don't think that's quite feasible(:
Oh well. It's almost an ides into January.. and I think I've finally figured what my resolutions for this year are...
1. spend more time with the grandparents.ie have dinner with them once a week/fornight.
2. Befriend tutorial mates. And hopefully share the gospel with them.
3. exercise.Exercise.EXERCISE!!
4. work diligently in school.
5. Trust in God more. And to not doubt His plans for me.
So, there. My resolutions for 2005. I don't care about all those bs that resolutions don't work. Well, if you don't try, how would you know??
Anyway, the first day of school, yesterday, was good.. I was really tired by the end of it. But, thankfully I had a free day today to rest.. I better get used to this routine. So far, school seems good. I feel more confident. And it helps when you do know more people. What's most important is that I know that for this year, I should try to share the gospel with my friends.. which means, I have to go find friends first. When you kinda know what God's plan for you is, there's this indescribable assurance in life.
Okay. I better go off.. there's class tmr morn@8am. But, I'm still full from the lagsana. And I think I'm constipated again. I always am when school term kicks in..ugh.. how's that for my stomach??
Oh well. It's almost an ides into January.. and I think I've finally figured what my resolutions for this year are...
1. spend more time with the grandparents.ie have dinner with them once a week/fornight.
2. Befriend tutorial mates. And hopefully share the gospel with them.
3. exercise.Exercise.EXERCISE!!
4. work diligently in school.
5. Trust in God more. And to not doubt His plans for me.
So, there. My resolutions for 2005. I don't care about all those bs that resolutions don't work. Well, if you don't try, how would you know??
Anyway, the first day of school, yesterday, was good.. I was really tired by the end of it. But, thankfully I had a free day today to rest.. I better get used to this routine. So far, school seems good. I feel more confident. And it helps when you do know more people. What's most important is that I know that for this year, I should try to share the gospel with my friends.. which means, I have to go find friends first. When you kinda know what God's plan for you is, there's this indescribable assurance in life.
Okay. I better go off.. there's class tmr morn@8am. But, I'm still full from the lagsana. And I think I'm constipated again. I always am when school term kicks in..ugh.. how's that for my stomach??
Saturday, January 08, 2005
Wednesday, January 05, 2005
new year
oh well..guess wat.
wat?
it's the new year.. 2005!!
*sheepish grin* okok.. fine.. no lame jokes..
i'm kinda in a hyper mood now..
sometimes i wonder.. the older you get, the more the brain degenerates rite?? esp with the amount of lame jokes i spew nowadays..
jokes aside.
it's 2005. and i'l be 20 in some days..(*ah-hem*i'm not as bhb as some ppl, who put countdown the days for you to remind you.. plus, blatantly tell you wat they want for their birthdays..how annoying*rolls eyes*) heh. anyway, my teenage years are going gone.. i'm left with a few days now..heh.. it reminds me of luyang.. she said she had a very low-key n hush hush 20th birthday..at that time, which was like 2 years back, i didn't quite get her.. but, now, i understand. i'm getting old.. and it's not easy comin to terms with it. ok, so maybe i'm exaggerating the whole issue.
going to hit 20..
it's when more responsibilites are dished out.. your licence to act ridiculous, is almost gone. ppl, esp the older n wiser adults would give that wat-on-earth-are-u-doing??? look. yeah.. i get the in church sometimes.. esp, when i talk too loudly and laugh too loudly.. thankfully.. i'm responsible most of the other times.. if not.. there goes my rep..
this year.. is going to be a new year.. a challenging year. the school year will be interesting, i'm quite excited abt sem2.i'll know virtually no one for all my modules.again. but this sem is different from last sem. i'm confident that God has let me go to nus for a purpose.. and i pray that He will really use me this sem.i hope that i will have confidence in school, in meeting new people and making new friends. confidence. what a way to start the year. let's hope i have this same confidence for moving to a new church(:
wat?
it's the new year.. 2005!!
*sheepish grin* okok.. fine.. no lame jokes..
i'm kinda in a hyper mood now..
sometimes i wonder.. the older you get, the more the brain degenerates rite?? esp with the amount of lame jokes i spew nowadays..
jokes aside.
it's 2005. and i'l be 20 in some days..(*ah-hem*i'm not as bhb as some ppl, who put countdown the days for you to remind you.. plus, blatantly tell you wat they want for their birthdays..how annoying*rolls eyes*) heh. anyway, my teenage years are going gone.. i'm left with a few days now..heh.. it reminds me of luyang.. she said she had a very low-key n hush hush 20th birthday..at that time, which was like 2 years back, i didn't quite get her.. but, now, i understand. i'm getting old.. and it's not easy comin to terms with it. ok, so maybe i'm exaggerating the whole issue.
going to hit 20..
it's when more responsibilites are dished out.. your licence to act ridiculous, is almost gone. ppl, esp the older n wiser adults would give that wat-on-earth-are-u-doing??? look. yeah.. i get the in church sometimes.. esp, when i talk too loudly and laugh too loudly.. thankfully.. i'm responsible most of the other times.. if not.. there goes my rep..
this year.. is going to be a new year.. a challenging year. the school year will be interesting, i'm quite excited abt sem2.i'll know virtually no one for all my modules.again. but this sem is different from last sem. i'm confident that God has let me go to nus for a purpose.. and i pray that He will really use me this sem.i hope that i will have confidence in school, in meeting new people and making new friends. confidence. what a way to start the year. let's hope i have this same confidence for moving to a new church(:
Saturday, January 01, 2005
still
Uncle Lawrence lead this at watchnight service, yesterday night. as we sang this song, it struck me with the fact that God is KING over the flood, over the recent tsunami disaster, eventhough it may seem unfair of God to have allowed it to happen.
Still
Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me
within your mighty hand
When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God
Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust
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