Sunday, January 23, 2005

randoms

took this off from timfoo's blog.. i just thought that it was rather apt for what i've been mulling over recently:

Thankfully, it was also then that God made me realise that i was not alone! He was with me=) Was very comforted by that. And it was then that i felt realli close to God. Soon, my confidence picked up and i got to know more people there=)

What i thought was gonna be a horrible phase, turned out more than juz fine! Now as I look back, i think God is reminding me that regardless of how many people are around you, or how many people are not around you, you can still be complete in Him. He even tells you how. Thank you Jesus, Praise God!=)

something to remind myself of now, just the thing to remember in the next few months to come. it is true.. when one starts to focus on the wrong things, ie. the focus is shifted from God, life will feel unbalanced. eventhough last year nus was such an alienating world for me, i did feel really close to God. but these few days, i feel like i'm all over the place. drifting further. and i recognize that i'm clinging on to the wrong things. it's tough to not cling. it's not absolutely wrong. it's not even wrong. but it becomes wrong when the focus is no longer on God..

it's so difficult to live a life where i am complete only in God. it's so easy to forget when one is surrounded with people/friends. it's a lesson God has been trying to teach me since sec school.. it seems that every year, i've one best friend flying off to study in some country. i thought i learnt my lesson well, when liz left and i've learnt to cope.. apparently not. this time, it's my turn to uproot. i've got to live such that regardless of the people around me, i'm complete only in God. sigh. such a difficult lesson to learn. but it's a must to.

makes me think of the song: it's all about You, Jesus. And all this is for You, for Your glory and Your grace. it's not about me, as if You should do things my way. You alone are God and I surrender, to Your ways.

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