i PASSED

ooooooooohhhhhhh... i passed. i PASSED.. heh. yeah. i passed my 1st uni exam.. n considerin the amount i studied with all the adjustments to make this 2nd half yr, i'm very grateful to God. my cap score sux. so i shant talk abt it..but, i realize that without tuition next sem, and with a better idea of how uni is like.. i think i'll do better. no. not think. i know i would do better.. just dont slack.

as always, glory goes back to God. cos' that's what i'm living for*grin*(:

ooh.. Christmas time!!

ade has FINALLY finished bakin..kinda tired too.. BUT, ade has NOT finished her Christmas cards!! oh well, wat's new..she never finishes her Christmas cards in time.. they are always belated. heh. oh well.so much for speakin in 3rd person.. i should go bathe now n try to get some cards done..either way, i know i can't finish enough...anyway,

just want to wish all those readin: Merry Christmas(: God loves you(: & i love ya too(:

busy busy busy christmas

non-stop shuttling from one christian event to another.. it's supposed to be good..but it goes to the extent of me neglecting my other friends. i know i'm spending too much time with christian stuff..1st, it was youth ee trainin(can really see God moving), then wefc youth camp(amazin to see non-xtians want to accept Christ), qbc return of the king camp(revival pumpin to see our Christian youths wantin to be prepared), the gig@taka(heh. it was fun), vcf china students orientation(in e midst of it), ywav Christmas party(tomorrow!!).. trust me, that's not all.. there's more to come in next 10 days. i'll tell you more abt all these when i finally get to spend an ENTIRE day at home doin NOTHIN...which, won't be soon.. but, just felt like bloggin..

the problem is that i can go out on the streets n do ee, i can reach out to the youths, i can talk to the china students and be excited abt sharin Christ with them... but then, i miss out on my own friends. to me, lifestyle evangelism is uptmost important. 80% of xtians knew Christ through a friend/family..and i know i'm not doing enough.. i cant even bring a friend of my mine to Christ. i can't even let them know of this wonderful gift of eternal that they can actually receive. i can't even let them know of the true meanin of Christmas.. i can't help my Christian friends who are still not strong in Christ to grow. i dont spend enough time with ANY of them. liz came back close to a month ago, n i've NOT seen her. i don't even know where sondha is now..argh.

it explains a lot when my smses arent replied. i dont even know wat to do.. i still have so much to learn.. how to allocate time appropriately..

i guess, i've to get right with God first. haven't even been spending enough time doin QT, if i'm not too tired out to do. sigh. adeline fam READ THIS:BLOCK OUT ONE DAY FOR EQTWG.

anyway,my dear reader who is readin this, dont worry, i'm fine. just a little too tired n busy. i know wat i need to do. just help me pray to God that i will do wat needs to be done, k?

if i don't blog before Christmas, have a Merry Christmas(: May you celebrate Christmas because of Jesus' birth and not anything else. Amen!

Shout YOUR Fame

SOME SAY YOU'RE JUST A GOOD MAN, SOME SAY YOU WERE KIND
SOME SAY YOU ARE IN THE GRAVE, BUT I SAY YOU'RE ALIVE
SOME SAY YOU'RE JUST A PROPHET, SOME SAY YOU WERE WISE
SOME SAY YOU WERE JUST A MAN, BUT I SAY YOU ARE GOD, YOU ARE MY GOD

I WILL SHOUT YOUR FAME TO ALL THE EARTH
I WILL LIFT YOUR NAME ON HIGH
AND THE WORLD WILL KNOW YOUR GREATNESS
YOU ARE MY GOD, I WILL SHOUT YOUR FAME

I KNOW YOU'RE THE MESSIAH. YOU GAVE YOUR LIFE FOR ME
I KNOW YOU'RE THE ONLY WAY, JESUS YOU ARE GOD, YOU ARE MY GOD

I WILL SHOUT YOUR FAME TO ALL THE EARTH
I WILL LIFT YOUR NAME ON HIGH
AND THE WORLD WILL KNOW YOUR GREATNESS
YOU ARE MY GOD, JESUS I WILL SHOUT YOUR FAME
TO ALL THE EARTH
I WILL LIFT YOUR NAME ON HIGH
I WILL SHOW THE WORLD YOUR GOODNESS
AS I LIVE A LIFE THAT SHOUTS YOU FAME
AS I LIVE A LIFE THAT SHOUTS YOU FAME

JESUS I DECIDE TO LIVE
LIVE A LIFE THAT SHOUTS YOUR FAME
SHOUT YOUR FAME

TAUFIK!!!

heh. i'm so happy!!! Taufik WON Singaproe Idol!! so cool. he's so cute. then again, so is nathaniel n david.. but, Taufik can sing!!! heh. okok. FINE. before i start sounding like some love-crazed teenage-bopper fan, i shall stop my gushings(:

*grins* anyway, yes. i am proud of tua Taufik. esp when he's going to go world idol, he definitely will beat rueben studdard anytime. and go make Singapore PROUD!

ok. i stop.

the exams ended over a week ago.. n i'm at home nursing a stomach flu.. not that i'm complaining... cos, stomach flu=eat less=lose weight!!! i think i ate something wrong at jb on monday. either that or i had too much yami yoghurt.. plus all the walking done last week during youth ee, it feels good(to be eating less..) you've no idea how much i eat when i study..

what's most important is that last week@youth ee was GOOD!! i'm so proud of each of the trainess from qbc.. they surprised me. plus the effort they put in to mug everyday N how they are sharing the gospel to their friends n relatives now tt they know how to..it's just amazing to see the urgency in them. it's something that i must learn too. i've to learn to make witnessing a lifestyle. it was awesome also to see God work in both the youth leaders n youths. must say that eric led a very good worship on sat(: God always works. He doesn't need humans, yet He still uses each one of us as His instruments.

it's my prayer now that all the ppl we've shared the gospel with on the streets will realize the urgency of believing in God. that only God can truly satisfy them. sigh. we just gotta keep praying(:

ooh exams..

guess wat. the exams start tomorrow. and they will be over in 5 short days. why short? bcos i know i cant finish studying. there's 6 more chapter's of psych to memorise til tue.tell me about retroactive interference...

and that's not including the other 6 lit texts to analyse. i'l prob get a C for this lit module. i got back lit term essay no.2. it was another C+. fine. the worst part was that the wonderful lit doc said i had to "work much harder" cos he couldn't see "much effort" put into that essay. right, if that's what you called 2 weeks of sleepless nights, so be it. and i'm supposed to feel encouraged. i'm only a hair's width from despair.

at least the exams will be over next tue. at least. if not for the fact abt the grades. it gets me worried, i must admit. the thing is, i keeping reading psalms. it's rather 'funny'. i read abt how God is firm and unchanging, that He will always watch over me and protect me from the 'evil one'. for the isrealites, the 'evil ones' were those who kept attacking them, throwing them into slavery, taking them away from God. heh ^ ^. i just realised something. was just going to ask what is that 'evil one' that keeps attacking me. cos there's nothing physically hitting me now(prob never will be any). i KNOW. evil one=anything that tries to take my focus away from God^ ^

so, pray for me, ya? that i'll keep my focus on God. i know that i'll do ok ultimately(at least i hope i dont get any grade lower than a C) some may call it 'blind faith'. but that's not what i want.

i want 'trusting faith'.

racing with horses

hmm. it appears that my running men have ceased to exist. they must be suffering from fatigue of running in squares for too long. oh well.. anyone seen them, catch them back for me, ya?

ok, fine, i admit that was so lame. but, oh WELL. i've one week and 2 more days left to study for the exams. do pray that i won't worry abt my french n my gem module too much.. i think i seriously screwed up the final tests.. n worse, there is no exam to mug for to bu-chang.. shucks. i'm a sucker for year-end exams. i can't stand 100%CA. CA=continual 'ardwork. for ling shi bao fo jiao ppl like me, i'm just screwed. anyway, no time to hyperventilate, i better mug my best for the other 3 modules.. then, i'm FREE for the next one n a half months..

Isaiah 12:5 If you're worn out in this footrace with men, what makes you think you can race against horses?

the END of essays

crap. only for this sem. wait. no. i still have the exams. oh well . sigh. any idea how much i D.R.E.A.D essays now? my brain is like a dry sponge. writing essays is like attempting to wring water out of a dry sponge. let's hope next sem is better ya?

really running in squares...

well, this is just for the visual impact... Lol.. it's quite hilarious actually...

running in squares...

this is how i feel sometimes. ha. in school, in life... ennui. entrapment..

okok.. maybe it's just bcos i'm trying to write that darn lit essay.. bleah. but still, just a thought, do u feel like u are running in squares, circles, rectangles, triangles.. for that matter???

blocked nose

i woke up this morn with my left-half of the nose. b.l.o.ck.e.d

ok. that doesn't really matter, other than the fact that i can't breathe properly. now, why did i come online to blog? i'm relieved bcos of an answered prayer. the one thing that has been bothering since the start of school(other than school. ah haha) has been settled.. so peaceful.. and i can actually concentrate on studying now(exams are in 4 and a 1/2 weeks time) funny how God works everything out, in His time.

funny that anyi should say i'm sounding so child-like..lots of things have been on my mind recently girl.. if i start writing in grown-up-speak, i'll just totally depress myself. besides, its good to have a child-like faith in God, ya? even if it's hard. sigh. oh well.

i gtg.. have that stupid-sure-to-fail psych test to study for..

angel-pig 

daft draft

realised that my recent posts have been so purile.. yeah. i know. trying not to think too much abt things. oh well.. u'll know a little about it soon.

my brain's been overcrowded with thoughts. too many things have been going on. i remember mr ariffin said before that i had to learn how to work under stress better. i always thought i could(i.e. u know when exams are just around the corner n u start studying like mad.. ) too many things have been going on. and sometimes, i don't know who to trust. that's no good. i kinda fear that that child-like part of me is slowly ebbing away... .. .

school's getting better(bcos God sternly told me while i was doing my quiet time that i had better get out of my depressive rut. ha. oh well, i'm trying God, i really am. but, it's just so difficult..) i can thank God that i've not been distracted by the opposite sex in nus(Lol. does it help that they are not appealing enough??) and a stable family that i can count on. oh. and vcf. it's been keeping my sanity, providing support spiritually, constanty reminding me to reach out to friends and not wallow in self-pity. yup yup ^ ^

ah. and above all, i do thank God for giving me peace and strength (:

hoey! purple hue 

brain dead-ness

i'm in school now. my brain half dead from TRYING to finish a long dued assignment. or rather, i think my brain is dead. already. heh. i've kinda lost my flair for crapping out essays during that 8 months of break... i kinda miss it actually.. sigh. but, no complaints(:

so curly.

For some absurd reason, my hair is getting really curly nowadays. When I pluck those irritant strands out, they are so curly!? And then I realized, when the hair becomes shorter, there is less weight to pull it down, thus it get curlier. Sigh. Oh well. I can’t get the best of everything. If hair’s neater, it’s gotta be short… and curly.

bluesky 

start. end.

start:
a new blog.
hard mugging work
dream of student exchange prog(which would require a 3.0 point average, where no module goes below a C)argh!

end:
procrastination